Last night I hung out with my good friends and some that I havn't seen in quite a while. We watched Laguna Beach. Friendship is crazy. I wasn't around for a long time. I didn't hang out with these friends for months. Then one night I show up and it's as if I never stopped. So natural. So easy. Accepting. I have seriously been blessed with good friends. I may have shitty decisions on who I choose to be in relationships with, but when it comes to the people that I need to fall back on.. they are always there. They are the ones that at the end of the day, no matter what went down, will still be standing by my side. They are the ones that matter the most. At times you can't see it. You are blinded by other things. Obligations. But the fact remains, when you do open your eyes, they will still be there. ------------------------------------------------------------------------- One of my friends is alone. She has taken herself out of the world and placed herself in her own. Two things exist in her world, herself and Him. But He is full of shit. The normal world can see it. Her friends, his friends. But no one can get through because the other world is isolated by snide remarks and forceful demands. They cannot hear a normal voice, only each others. They cannot see what is so obvious to anyone else, only what they choose to see. They do not know the sensation of feeling, they feel only what the other wants them to. This other world is not perfect though. There are tears, hurt feelings, and depression. We try to brake through, to help her. But she won't let us. It would make Him angry. The more we try, the harder it becomes, for we begin to get torn down by their angry words and hurtful acusations. It wears on us. It has worn on her. One day this world of hers with destroy itself. Until then, we can only wait and hope that she comes out alive. We will be waiting. No matter what any of us say. We will always be waiting with open arms for her to come back. And she will. ~Jessica*~