So. Life goes on. As usual. The first two weeks after Adam broke up with me, I was crying a lot. Couldn't really stop. At home, At work, In bed. I was a wrek. But life kept going. People were reaching out to me. Making me feel more me than I have felt in months. Brittany introduced me to a guy named Kevin. He in nice, shy, and a manly man. It's great. I am not ready to jump into a serious relationship. I want to have lunches with different guys. I want to make new friends by going to random parties. I want to be single. I forgot how much I enjoyed being Single. But Kevin and I are dating. He treats me so good. Better than Adam. It's awesome. I go Roses sent to my house the first week. I don't have to go "halvesies" on everything.. And I havn't been given a guilt trip because of money. It feels good to date, flirt and be appreciated. It feels a lot different now. So I am going to the desert wih him this weekend, to meet his family and go riding. I'm super excited. He's going to take me to Seaworld too. I've been waiting for that. After adam broke up with me.. everything seemed to go downhill. I was distraught, I was depressed, and I was without a car. I'm getting a truck tomorrow. I love my Grandparents. I love my family. They really helped me get out of my funk. Along with my friends. Thank God for my friends. And you know what is kind of crazy? Now that I am not with Adam, and I have quit smoking, I have started to have radical dreams. Very crazy dreams that I remember in the morning. That I can laugh at. It's awesome. And I think it's because I'm happy. Because I am free. Because I am me. 2008 is going to be a great year! I can't wait for school to start. I can't wait for swim to start. I can't wait to meet new people and most of all meet new guys. I'm not ready to be exclusive. I'm not ready to want a boyfriend. Until Next Time, Jessica