He asks me to explain why I lost some of my friends. So I do. And I'm stupid. Okay. Agreed. I could have handled lots of situations in different ways. But when you're upset, when you feel betrayed, when you feel like you can't trust anyone... You act differently. Yes, I would like to have my friends back. No, I don't think that can happen. I've tried to apologize, I've tried to act like it never happened. But too much time has passed. People change too much to go back. If it were him... he would have "forgave and forgotten"... yeah. Wish I had known you then. Please don't highlight the worst decisions of my life. Please don't highlight the lowest points that I can remember. If it were you.. I would try to see your point of view. I would try to understand how you felt. I wouldn't tell you you were wrong riht away (if at all). Some shit.. you should just hold in... or at least... rephrase. It hurt then.. and some scars.. never really heal as much as you hope they would. Yeah. Just now... It hurt.