Well today was pretty fucking boring.. being grounded *n* all.. just went to my aunt's and had thanksgiving. It was kinda cool though my cousin pulled me aside and we talked forever about a bunch of shit. She's 26, and I guess her parents did the same shit to her and she's been through it all. But yeah it was just really cool to talk to her. Then I just got home from Shawna's house since that's like the only place I can really go. (ha) I'm thinking about sneaking out cuz I'm bout to go insane!!... but I know if I got caught I would just make things a million times worse.. So I've pretty much assumed me and Chase are over, I've been home for a week now and I've only talked to him like three times.. and he never calls. I know I just need to stay close to him so I can get $ for all my girls he owes. But I >DO< have his house keys, and his car keys.. haha so yeah. He really is fucking up by not calling me cuz I know he won't find someone else who cares about him as much as I do. But I know he's lied to me a lot, and I know he has a problem with that.. but it really hurts sometimes. So me and Lucas started talking again! I don't know why but I'm just excited about it, he's really changed a lot since he's been out of jail. He lives closer too, and that helps A TON. He came over the other day for like 4 hours. He's just really sweet, and he's been through a lot, and we haven't done anything and I think that helps. I think fucking before you get into a relationship just ruins things. Well my parents are really pissing me off more than ever. Mostly my mom, she's the biggest bitch I sware. She doesn't let me do SHIT and she's always hiding her fucking boyfriends it's annoying as hell. I mean my dad doesn't hide the girls he's dating, but I mean that's still weird to me.. they haven't been divorced that long.. I started rehab this week, and it's (of course) a thousand times better than Pathway. It takes up a lot of time but oh well, it's not like I can do anything else right now! The guys are really cool, except for what sucks is I have to see Kristen, but there's a bunch of people who already wanna beat her ass lol.. that fuckin bitch! She like still tries to be friends with me she really needs to get over it! Paul got home from college and came over and watched a movie with me last night. I really really miss him :/ Oh-well, I'll stop now! Peace all