Well, just got home from rehab. .:.WHAT FUN!!!.:. --> not really, it's pretty damn annoying and extremely boring sitting in a rehab group for 3 hours. But hey, >aNyThInG< is better than {{pathway}} So yeah today Kristen walks up to rehab and she's like 'hey i bought you a candy bar!'.. and I'm standing outside with Haley and some guys and they are just like laughing because they know how much I hate her. But hey, I took it! (lol) It's weird, I know she is like bribing me to be her friend or something.. god GET OVER IT! So rehab isn't that horrible, there are some cool girls and some cute guys.. they have some serious issues though. But Haley is there (we got pulled from Pathway the same day)--> and we are getting to be pretty good friends, I mean it was gay when we were in Pathway together and we couldn't talk to each other.. ha. So yeah today was actually a pretty shitty day. I don't know i just felt like N U M B all day it was so weird. Maybe it's because I'm worrying about something a little bit too much... Jenn knows about it, but that's it... Well anyway when I got home and got online today Greg got into this huge fight with me over winterguard and I got so pissed off. I'm not even sure why I was so pissed, but he was acting like he knows more about guard than me or something because he "helps out." -> big fuckin deal. I actually ended up crying and I guess I didn't realize how much I miss guard, it's weird. It's like I hate practice and stuff, but I mean I'd rather be there than rehab and I just love performing stuff. Oh~well.. I was pretty bitchy today about everything my parents just piss me off to no end. I mean my dad doesn't as much, but still. They act like I've only been grounded for a week and it's no big deal.. but I think they should count the time I spent locked up because it was so fucking horrible. I hate not having my car, my phone, my job.. just everything. I'm really depressed and everything pisses me off really easy right now. (((WaRnInG*!*))) Wellll one good thing about today, I talked to Lucas. (Don't talk to Chase anymore, can't even get ahold of him, so FUCK it!) But anyway, I love talking to him. I don't know but I had the worse day and when I talked to him I just felt so much better.. I never felt this way with Chase and I haven't since I was in love with Ryan.. so yeah. I think I might start to have feelings for him if we keep hanging out.. like i can already feel it ya know? It's pretty nice actually that he lived at Fairbanks for 4 1/2 months because he knows exactly what I'm going through and how I feel about all this shit. Maybe I'm just stupid, but I'm not going to fall into any dumbass's shit and get a broken heart again. I can't afford that right now. But Lucas hasn't done anything to make me believe he would be a bad boyfriend/unfaithful.. I really hope things work out with us this time. Gotta run---------peace niggaz