Well today was the first day back after break, and well yeah it pretty much sucked! I just hate so school so much and wish I was dropped out or graduated like all my friends. :( Well I actually talked to Kristen a little bit today, kind of weird but it was alright. I don't really know yet if I want to be her friend again, but I guess everything will come with time. It's really weird living here at my dad's without my brother and sister. I guess I miss them, even though they will be here next week. Rehab was kind of weird seeing my mom too, and she just annoys the shit outta me. Like when she first walked in she handed my dad my report card from awhile ago which had a D+ and an F on it.. like she was trying to piss me off or something? wtf? idk. But rehab was really interesting tonight we got two new people. One really messed up girl who's addicted to heroin, and this guy with one arm who said nothing will ever stop him from smokin weed. ha. He was hilarious. I don't know how much of rehab I have left, but it's not much, me & Haley are leavin next! So both Chase & Lucas want me to move in with them when I turn 18. I really don't know who I want to live with right now when that time comes, but the way I see it a lot of things could change between now and then. I don't know if Lucas is going back to jail or not. Speaking of jail, I just found out Nick is locked up and Tim is going to be soon. Nick is one of my x's, yeah I actually thought he was going to stay outta jail for awhile but I guess not. And Tim is one of my best friends, so that'll just suck. I hate jail, I miss boo-boo and Cory so much. It's hard to go from seeing someone every single day to never.. it's like he's dead except for I can write him. **I MISS YOU BOO-BOO!** Oh yeah Lucas came to see me tonight at rehab. He's so sweet. He also got me a necklace for xmas & I love it. He's like the perfect guy to me except for he might go to jail but I hope not. I don't know why for some reason him being sweet like turns me off? Maybe I'm just so used to being with Chase. Me & Ryan started talking again. I know that's probably bad but I just seriously love him more than anything. I'd do anything to be with him again but that probably won't happen. I don't think I'm gunna sleep tonight. Don't really feel like it, but God I wish I could take adiral! Oh well, I'm out. 1