Well this long~ass weekend is over, which sucks.. but it was a good weekend! So here's what i did!.. On Saturday I woke up late then took my sis & her friends out tanning & to Dairy Queen. Then I had to work 4:30-9, but my friend Richie came from Bloomington and surprised me at work! So I chilled with him for awhile then we met up with Katie, Lucas & Kyle.. Katie got her system hooked up and it sounds PIMP! haha.. then we met up with Mallory and there was a lot of drama so i left & went to a party with Danny P! It was actually really tight, there was like 15 dudes and 2 broke~ass girls haha.. so i had fun! I drank a lil bit and ended up sleepin at Danny's apt with Mikey too.. yeah driving in the snow was not good that night my car like spun in a million circles.. ha good thing it was 3:30! I went to bed at like 6 i think.. it was def. the best night i've had in awhile! Then Sunday had to work a double shift.. which sucked except i got to work with Haley!.. ha these guys from my school came in & left her a $20 tip and got her number it was soo funny. But after she left it got SOOO busy cuz of the Colts game.. we were like an HOUR behind it was horrible! I like started crying & everyone was screaming.. i get all the shit from our customers even tho *I* don't do shit.. god i hate donatos sometimes! But later that night I just went to Tommy's and we watched American History X.. bad ass movie but i fell asleep at the end.. got home at like 12:30.. damn early! Then today I just layed around, took Patrick shoppin since i *promised* him i would! He's used to wearing prison clothes so it was kinda funny.. then had a >family meeting< at 5.. which was real gay :/ I'm still not living with my mom.. but the good news is i graduated rehab today! How gay does that sound? Ha I don't really care I'm fuckin HAPPY! haha plus today is 100 days since i've smoked weed.. really doesn't feel like that long but whatever. Haley graduated today too, which is weird, we got out of Pathway correctional facilty the same day and we got out of Fairbanks rehab the same day.. fucking WEIRD! But looking at all of this, I guess some good did come out of all this, I have Daniel & her.. and they are like my best friends, and we're finally done with all this shit! Then Jessa came over tonight & we watched Napoleon Dynamite! haha ---> funny movie!! Sooo anyway, Lucas is missing.. and I'm sooo worried. He has court tomorrow, which I was planning on going too, but how can I when I have no clue where he is?!?! His grandma has been calling me everyday, and i'm just so scared for him. I even checked the jails and he's not there.. so i really don't know. I heard he was back with his x but it just isn't like him to ignore me and his family like this. I understand he doesn't wanna go back to jail tomorrow, but this is just making it soo much worse. --Lucas I miss you and i LOVE you.. PLEASE come home :( -- So things are still weird with my mom, I hate seeing her it just like.. H U R T S. A part of me wants to talk to her and live with her again but then again i don't. Whenever I drive home late at night i see her bf's car at her house.. and it gives me like the worst feeling in the world. it really is like she chose HIM over ME. and there's nothing i can do about it. Sometimes i really wish i had more girl friends, like, i have katie & jenn & that's about it. Guys always ask me to bring girls out with me but i seriously don't know any! Katie and Jenn both have boys, so i just have to go out by myself.. i really don't know why girls hate me so much i'm not that bad damn.. lol I tried talking to Derek tonight but it didn't work he's acting like a kid.. but whatever i guess i'll have to forget about him, but i really did care about him. i guess a part of me just wanted to be with him so bad, but he always made me feel like shit. i actually thought he had feelings for me but i guess not.. god i'm always wrong about that shit. well i still have feelings for him. Well shit we have school tomorrow.. so I guess I'm out.