i went to work at the track again this weekend and i saw anthony and well i WAS ok and then he was talking to me a being nice to me and flirting with me like he use to he made me wish it was like old times i hate that i still love him, i hate that apart of me still wants him... why did he have to be nice last time i talk to him he said he hated me .... why i was fucking ok i was fucking fine... why couldn't he of just left me alone... let me get on with my freaking life...why did i have to still care... why did i have to still love him .... i had a dream about him like he was looking at me like he still cared and he secretly wanted me too.... why??? can't i just for get him