well i don't think i could screw up my life anymore ... i pushed away the love of my life just so i could figure out 100%he was for me ... and well like with the rest of my life i fucked it up i took too long and now someone else has .. him i hurt so bad inside i honestly thought i was gonna have a heart attack today .. i got to see him again and all those feelings came rushing back .. how that he was the only person i could honestly tell anything to and he wouldn't judge me .. how much i just fucking love him.. but i seems like i'll never get him back cause of him moving on already ... it just hurts so bad cause i have never been selfish in my life when it comes to my feelings...i just want to find him and tell him i'm not going away until he tells me to.. and right now i would pretty much do anything to win him back to show him how much i love and care and appreciate him.. i made him my whole world and i feel lost with out him ...every time i go to bed i just wish he was there to hold me and cuddle with me .. i just wanna work things out... i miss my best friend .. i just don't care want anyone says about him anymore i love him so much ..