some one help have you ever had to figure something out cause it was driving u completely insane... well i chose anthony and a couple days before that adam quit talking to me... and i kinda know why cause he figured he was gonna be put last and in my heart he was ...i hate the fact that i like him now more than ever so me and him can't just be friends cause we both wouldn't be able to handle it... well things with me and anthony are good... but i can't get this "what if" out of my head (WHAT IF I CHOSE ADAM)i mean usually i can find some reasoning to my decisions and make the "what if" go away but i want to explore this one... like i see signs or i think they are signs and maybe think that i made the wrong choice like adam drives a red dogde truck and i see those more now than ever and i have this song on my phone as his ring tone i hear it everytime i turn on the f-ing radio.... it feels like eveything is yelling at me adam and i am afriad i found the perfect guy and i just gave him up like he meant nothing... but then i am with anthony and i love him so much he means the world to me ...i am so lost