ok so i am depressed and it's finally forcing me to deal with it... i don't know why...i feel like i don't belong here any more like i served my time and i need to move on... i just hate how i have tons of friends when i am single and as soon as i start to have a boyfriend again ... the start dropping like flys one by one and i can't ever find some one by my house... i mean i love anthony to death and want to spend the rest of my life with him if he'd ask ... but i just don't know anymore ... i guess hearing about the navy or and chance to get the FUCK out of here sounds super ....right now ...i just don't want to go in for the reason to get away... but honestly whats left for me ........ NOTHING i have friends .. i guess.. well i have family... but i am unhappy here .. i talked to an old friend tonight thinking maybe i could find one last thing that would encourage me... and nothing same shit day after day