man this weekend is fucking crazy two guys i called good friends of mine found the buttons to push and pushed them bad.. i had bought alchol and i sick of them drinking it and never getting to finshen it. i mean why pay for something for u aND u don't get to drink it i asked them not to drink it i show up the next dAY and they already started drinking them. bullshit.. then they say they aren't playing favorites when it comes to drinking people shit that's in the fridge. bull shit they didn't drink laura shit. well i got pissed then they started mouthing and said some hatefull shit about me being jealous about them hanging out with laura. whiich i am not gonna lie i was it pissed me off and it really seemed that's what they wanted to do. well i talked to her for the first time in like 2 years... it took a lot for me to do it. but it had to be done. well i stoped hateing her.. good sign well i can't say i am completely trill about us talking.. but it's not good to hate someone. well anyway i feel like i am being pushed really bad by anthony to talk to her and be ok with her. so we all can hang out...right! well i am still really insecure about them two talking or HANGING out i defantly don't want to go down this rode again... my gut is telling me to believe her but then i have anthony sitting there say how long is this being ok thing gonna take.. what the fuck!!! u should be lucky i even made peace with her.. don't fucking push ur luck damn it... i can eventually see all of us hanging out.. that can be ok but i still feel like there are feelings cause they told each other they loved each other it drives me up the wall but i'll deal. but them twoo hanging out alone fuck that or them hanging out with out me still not ok with them talking to each other and not telling me not ok with so much ok lost my train of thought