i just love how Love isnt chasing me. during the summer it seemed like Love was the only thing in my life, and it was. but like now its not even something thats mentioned. it kind of ran away from me. but... i guess its okay. because all 7 of those guys were not worth it at all. and im not sorry to say it, because unfortunately its true. still though. i hate not having that feeling where someone feels like they NEED you. i hate not feeling wanted anymore its so lame but then again im pretty lame. im complaining about love hah. i remember they days i liked nolan. the YEARS i liked him. 3rd-8th grade, nonstop omg overobsessive. he never even gave me a passing glance in the hallways, even though he called me his 'best pal'. haha noway, man. noway. never. no. gosh. i used to think he was the greatest thing that ever happened in this world. he was cute funny outgoing 'charming'. i kept on telling myself to look past his arrogance and stuff so i didnt pay attention to the things he did to me in 7th grade... but anyway. thats over with. completely. i finally realized on graduation day of 8th grade that nolan was NOT worth anything. all along he was just this cocky, shitfaced, ego-tistical, full-of-himself, arrogant boy. who used me..to his 'advantage'. id like to have slapped him, or even myself. because i still wanted him to sign my yearbook. what was nicole thinking?? valentines day is coming up real soon. ew. sick. gross. bleh. go away. loverss. im only in it for the candy+flowers+chocolate, not like im expecting any. for once i thought i knew i wouldnt spend this valentines alone, but hey. i was wrong again. im single on valentines for the 14th year in a row :] but...there are still some people like that? right? oh well. why do i complain so much about Love? because it involves candy+flowers+chocolate? giveittomebabyyyyy IHATELOVE