okay. so like uhm i had a scarier dream last night, compared to the one i had a few nights ago. i was in this deserted town, it was daytime. there was this creepy tall house. run down, light blue, dirty, empty. for some reason there were other people there looking at it, like it was some open house thing. i walked into the house for a few seconds, and then right away it turned into night. i walked out of the place and looked at it, and there were a whole bunch of white lights shining inside, like it was some business building. but then i looked out at the 'town' and it was totally blazing with fire. everywhere. i got really scared and so i just started running, i didnt know where the hell i was going. i was just running. i came to this other house that sort of looked like the building i went into. it was very much on fire. i guess my family lived there or something. and suddenly i was screaming. i think i was screaming 'NO'. but anyway, my dad perished in the fire. i didnt know where anyone else was, but i saw my mom. she was in our car, just sitting there and staring ahead. i opened the passenger door and at first i was afraid to say anything. cause she totally looked possessed or something. then i just tapped her and was like 'WE HAVE TO GO!' cause there was just fire everywhere you looked. so she snapped out of it and kind of smiled at me, and was like 'oh, yes. sorry, sorry.' it was really weird...like, it was as if she thought it was no time to be mourning, so she kind of laughed to herself like she was being unreasonable at the moment. hm. so then i took her out of the car... and the weirdest thing happened. i think we were going to long beach. but somehow she was with me, and we just started gliding along these trains tracks. i guess yea, we were headed for long beach to uncle mike's house. but on the way there, we were just following train tracks... there were tons of them, twisting and turning whereever. and on some of them i even saw cars, and there was water on them. i dunno. we got to uncle mike's house and it was even bigger than how big their house is now. it was two stories and peach. i think it was one of the houses here in ventura that we always pass by. anyway, all of a sudden my mom was gone. and i was crying, so i guess she died or something. i was really very sad. i think....ken or yuki was with me. but i dont remember. yea. i dont remember much about the rest. but i think someone was telling me 'its okay' and a lot of people were sad and crying. i walked into the house and all of a sudden it was night, and it was really dark with a few lights. they were kind of orange-ish and glowy...like from my other dream. i dont know why, but i think i was in 'blairs' house. i guess she was having a birthday sleepover party. so i walked up the stairs, but i was really scared. i looked around, i guess i thought there was some killer/ghost thing around. i went into this room and i looked under the bed. i saw someones leg and i touched it, and it was deandras. which is really funny because i dont even talk to her, and i dont know...whatever. and she came out from under the bed and was like 'ah, okay.' and then that was it. for that part. then it switched to this other place.. it was like, some futuristic cafeteria. except all the lights were off. you could kinda see stuff, cause through the walls there was this dim glowy blue light. well there werent any chairs, and the tables were some kind of...machinery. but it was still round. there was this lead guy standing at the top of the cafeteria, and i guess it was some sort of military. but people were rushing around quietly and doing stuff with the 'tables'. it was like we were preparing for something. i cant remember anything more. thats pretty much it. but i hated the fire part. like, i never want one like that again. i really felt scared like shit and really agonizingly sad. let's focus on going to ileana's quincenera, now. partypartyparty