sick with madness. god. im just so fucking pissed right now for once, i actually hate everything. absolutely everything. i stayed sick home today right? last night right when i came home from school, i cooked dinner. i had to start right away cause i was making pizza. so i didnt start on homework until 7. and then i wanted to watch top model so i didnt really finish until 11. and then i went to sleep. and i felt like fucking shit this morning, and i probably have strep throat. so my mom comes home from picking up yuki and she yells at me for not folding the laundry. AND IM SICK. hm. well then. and then she tells me 'im not giving you $20 this week. you didnt fold the laundry OR chant. do i have to tell you to do everything?!' oh my fucking god. i was about to cry cause i was so pissed. do you know what i have to fucking do every fucking day of the week? wipe the bathroom floor, wipe the bathroom mirrors, clean off the counters, restock it. vacuum living room, put everything away, wipe the coffee table, clean the couch. wipe the kitchen floor, counters, put everything away, wash and dry the dishes. vacuum the back room, put everything away, wipe the tables. i have to do all of that. AND chant morning and before i go to sleap. AND still make time to finish homework. all of that. for fucking $20. what is that? tell me. WHAT IS THAT. it was originally going to be $10. WOW. hm. yes. that will get me to sua. fuck that. i might as well not even go. but i already told alex that i could go. and everything would just be ruined. fuck. im so mad right now. my mom didnt even have to do fucking ANYTHING for the house, while i did everything. and shes bagging on me. because i didnt fold the fucking laundry. or chant at night. hm. does it look like i have much time? i dont even have time for myself. and none of this money is even going to me, personally. its going to sua. so wtf. yea, im mad. its uncontrollable. i dont know whats wrong with me. everythings annoying me. and thats why i hate everything right now. thank fucking god tomorrows friday. oh yea. i guess that reminds me. my next door neighbor is a rich lady. french. had an annoying puppy that always wakes me up in the morning because of its stupid bark. she asked me to take care of it this weekend, friday saturday sunday. i was expecting some major dough by sunday, but then yuki told me id get like, $15. and that got me pissed as well. i mean, what if i just let the damn dog die?! dogs are worth more than that. more than a mere fucking $15. yuki doesnt know anything about grammar. so ken asks her for help, and not me. that makes sense. how cool.