Journey to the center of the...self?

Feeling: inquisitive
"Who here agrees that life should be cherished?? That's what I thought.There are few things in this world worth dying for, and how many of us would be willing to take that bullet? I say we live life by the day. Never look more than 24 hours ahead of yourself. Never sacrifice for something you dont truly believe in. Take risks. And most of all...dont be afraid to fail..." "There is really only one problem with that speech...its unrealistic. Sure we can live life to its fullest, but are we really willing to sacrifice EVERYTHING for that feeling. That, my friend, is living without logic..." "Once again, the above speech cannot be taken seriously. Life should adhere to the rules, and never stray from the given path that will make us prosperous and succesful." Which side do you stand with?...Make your choice. Cause, whatever you choose, you've got a point. Think about it. -Jack B. Nimble
Read 1 comments
Would I be strange to say that I had no idea which side I was on?

I'm the shy girl.
The one who walks in the hallways with her hair in her eyes
And her head staring at her feet.
I stutter.
I take small steps.
I have to have things planned before I do them.

I hate it.

I wish I could be like the first person.
But alas,
I fear I am the second.

I need to stop contradicting myself.
It's bothersome.