she said two things. the first: i didn't want him enough. the second: i was afraid of rejection. both were partially right, but not enough to stop me from constantly thinking about him. pfff! none of those are true, i just have low self-esteem. meh, he'll probably never like me anyway.
Listening to: roslyn - bon iver & st. vincent
But.. I'm thankful that I do have a couple friends whom share my fullest interests and values. They are very rare though.
And.. I guess.. maybe I haven't yet found my lois. The current woman as much as we seemed to have mutual feelings for one another. Well.. I don't know what to think anymore.
This entry by the way.. it reminded so much of what this current woman I like might've said to her ownself in terms of how she feels about me. lol.. but yeah.. I hope you're well.. and cheerful :-) More cheerful than me at least, lol :-)