i don't know why you've been on my mind lately.

i've since been able to stomach the idea that i won't find someone like you. it was expected. i'm aware that you're not unique. there's a million versions of you running through my mind, and a million more that i've crossed in my daily life, but i'm fighting a cold, my thoughts, and my feelings and i don't have the guts to fight tonight.

you left, and took with you, the heart of a 24 year old me. come to think of it, maybe that's what i'm really missing. unfortunately, whether i miss you or the heart, the result is the same: i still think about us from time to time.

i've been reminded over and over not to dwell on regrets, can i just dwell on your aging face? let's not get back together and borrow each other's mind for a bit; we are overdue. the library is about to close and you are my favourite book.

all this to say,

I love you; don't ever change.