wow, i love it when things just seem so right. my kids and i (for those of you who don't know, thats my bro's) were gonna make cookies, so i decide to invite tonya over. when she got here we were eating lunch. so i ask her to eat with me. so just the two of us are sitting there, cause the kids are in the other room playing. something in my head clicked, as if to say "dwayne, dont you see, this is so perfect. wouldn't it be great to do this every day." i'm sure the voice in my head didnt mean eating together. it was slightly majestic i guess, and it left me in awe. then we made some cookies, and we played hide and seek. it was kinda weird. it was like being parents. almost a glimps of what the future may hold. i loved it. it's a shame she had to work. but i'm trying to be an optimist and look at the fact that at least she came over. the other day we went thru all of the notes she ever gave me (yeah i still had them all, i'm a sap, what can i say). anyway, we threw out all of the ones that were hurtful to me. that was actually alot of them sad to say. it was mainly cause she spent alot of time trying to talk me out of liking her. or the really funny one were i hinted to her (very bluntly) that i liked her, and she didnt even realize it. not until she read the note again just the other day. and that note was from october. it ammuses me still. hard to believe, but we've been best friends for just about a year now. even thru all the shit. strength. i'm about to go headbang with my headphones on. holla back if you feelin the flow. peace