i would say i wish i was dead but that is not true we spend too much time on words that mean nothing. or we spend too much time in silence. but the words that we think are heartfelt are nothing but twisted lies. venomous lips spu forth a foul nectar. bleeding so profusley that i choke. i have not stopped shaking now for hours. my world shattered like an old window but somehow, as always, i'm not broken. i'm forgiving but never forgetting. i wish i could forget. and as i try whole heartedly to be what i know i can. so many roadblocks pop up to fuck me. i cannot settle my stomach i feel as if i may vomit at any moment and what hurts me most is the silence or is it the way in which things present themselves. secrecy, deciept. false regrets god, what a horrible night to be me. but dont waste your pity on me so many are more diserving just dont forget me. no, i'm not going anywhere, just keep me in your thoughts and if you love me, then love me. that is all i ask i dont need words, just love that is all i ask