so hacc sucks yet again. i love it. life sucks yet again. alright. i erode... fade like cologne... i dont even know what the fuck to talk about i just wish the end of the world would come. i am good at nothing therefore i cant rightly get a job i love so basicly my life is doomed to suck... i wish i could win some way, fade through this dark decay... i'm tired yet i dont feel like sleeping. sad, but i'm too tired to cry. oh the poetic justice of my situation. i have a headache, i took medicine for it but it didnt work. it's like life, whatever you try to do to make things better, they never work.. it just stays the same... until you give up... it's a long road nowhere... i just wanna stay with ups until i'm done with school, but by that time i'll be at atleast 11 an hour with full benefits so chances are i'm gonna wanna stay there, even though i hate it. i understand why every one hates it yet they are still there. i understand why people stay with jobs they hate. but is money better than happiness? in the hopeless world we live in, i'd say yes. i'd rather be happy, but i have other people that i'd rather worry about. finish me... what would make me happy with my life... well, i want a career dealing with music in some way... music is so very important to me. the second of the great loves in my life. cancelled compassion.... one more day to regret... music is what drives my life. it has been with to help me through the tough times and has made the good times even better. sometimes i feel like i should cry blood. shed a crimson tear. but then would i bleed tears? one more day to regret... you take me higher than the lowest place... i am the happiest person i know...