so, tonya and i just got home from prom. i dont know, it was ok if you like being uncomfortable and crammed in a room full of people you either dont know or dont like. i finally met tonya's friend nicole. she is very nice like tonya said. i'm glad she has a friend who is worthy enough to be around her. one that wont stab her in the back. so anyway, i tried to make this a very very special evening for tonya. i even cooked her dinner. i love to cook for her, she's the only person that appreciates it when i cook and i thank her for that. but i dont think i did i good job tonight. i mean, she didnt seem too happy and i think i did something wrong. they played three whole good songs the whole damn time we were there. and it pissed me off. i wish she would have had a good time. i'm a failure. i couldnt make her happy, shit, i feel bad now. prom gifts are stupid they are like "let's give out beer mugs, shot glasses, and martini glasses, but not encourage underage drinking. whatever dumb fuck decided that was a good idea needs the left testicle removed with a rusty spork. fucking retards. i'm going to go love tonya now. i miss her and she's only ten feet away. with the sound of the ocean crashing down, it's seven thirty, on friday evening.