I think I hate myself right now. But you know what? I'm ok with it. I'm not gonna go on and on about what I did and why I did it, cause you know what, that's my business, and I'm not gonna explain myself over and over again, cause frankly, I don't give a damn what you think. I'm sorry if you disagree, but, I've gotta look out for myself sometimes, alright? And plus, it wasn't fair to him for me to not be as into it as he was. And I've got ALOT of shit to worry about right now, I couldn't handle it all, okay? I can't make everyone happy. Trust me, I've tried, it doesn't work, cause it ends up that maybe everyone else is happy, but you're not happy with yourself. You just can't win. So I'm on my own now. Kiefer....I'm sorry that I hurt you. Truly, I am. *<3 Linds