soooooooooooooooo it's back to pretending. for a while there I could be myself. i could say what I thought. but that's not what HE wants. so it's back to pretending. omfg i don't know what to get Keifer for xmas. i suck at life. i hate shopping for guys. girls are easy - make-up, candy, jewelry, flowers..... any of those and you're good. but guys are confusing. whatever. i'm tired and I have to write three essays and a chapter of notes. peace out. P.S. JORDI!!!! WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN ALL MY LIFE, I HAVEN'T SEEN YOU IN YEARS!!!!! Lame.