no..i dont really feel too stellar, but its a fun word, so ill use it. im tired...not in your typical sense though. im tired of feeling the i have to make everyone else happy...and not myself. and i decided to change that, about a week ago. so why is it that i make a change to make myself happy for once and i end up feeling like shit? well...i dont feel like shit..but...more...guilty, bad, evil...you get the point. but you know what? i cant please everyone, and everyone cant please me. so from now on, i am placing myself in the midst of people who do make me happy. i cant always be the one listening to others. its my turn for my voice to be heard. from now on...i wont jeopardize myself any more to make other people feel good about themselves and be happy. why cant people let me try to be happy? it seems like most want to bring me back down... ok..rant = over. comment plz!!!