so im pissed/hurt/embarassed because of Brian. he, jamie, ashley and i were supposed to go on a double date tomorrow to olive garden for lunch. i call brian just to remind him to be there by noon (we're all christmas shopping after, and driving seperately) and he goes "if im not too hung over ill get up" i sent him a text while making dinner that said if he didnt come id be hurt and embarassed, showing up to a double date alone. he calls and leaves a voicemail that says "ill be there if i get up, and if not, thats how its going to be." the thing about brian is..hes an alcoholic, and he knows it. it started mainly 2 years ago when his dad died of cancer. he went to a friends fathers funeral today and is out partying it up like always right now. he started screaming at me on the phone because i asled him why he couldnt make it. it wouldnt be any big deal if we ever went out. the last time he and i went out to eat was before we got together. but now he just doesnt give a shit. i just dont understand how one person can willingly and knowingly hurt someone this bad. im so tempted to call him and just dump him right now. i honestly hate this...but i love him. i dont know what to do im so hurt from him being so callused towards me. ive already sent texts to Jamie telling him that we wont be there. my gut tells me to leave him but my heart wants to stay with him.all i know is hed better be showing up to a double date alone tomorrow, cause im not going anywhere.