why have i been so tired lately? all i do is sleep. i used to stay up until 2 on weekdays, now i can barely make it past 10. i guess my parents are right about needing that much sleep, but of course since i'm stubborn i had to learn that on my own. i've been going to the gym everyday since monday. what an accomplishment. trying to eat healthy too. i might bring carrots for lunch today, the mini ones. i haven't talked to mike for about a week. i finally realized i need to be away from him and i need to stop trying to be near him. it doesn't help me get over him if i try and talk to him everyday. and everytime i talked to him i'd get disappointed for some reason, and now i don't have to get disappointed. at least not from talking. i still know what he is out doing right now which is a disappointment but i can't save him and i'm done trying. yes i still care, i love him and always will, but i was at the point where i let everything he did affect me and that is terrible for me. i'm finally done. i miss you elisha :( ♥