i am weak. i tell myself i won't ever let anyone else know my weakness because i always regret it. i just can't take it anymore. i don't need a guy to feel complete, i'm fine on my own but it'd be nice to have one. and i don't think i am hideous, and i don't think i have a terrible personality. but my thoughts always seem to be disproven by what happens, or lack of what happens. since NOTHING ever happens. fuckingfuckfuckfuck. not to mention, i'm pissed at pretty much everyone right now. like kyle. have not seen him for about a year since hwe stopped talking and he dropped out or got kicked out of school. but he's been at lunch for the past week, and everyday he says he'll call but there's always an excuse the next day. i feel like i am forcing people to talk to me. i really didn't think i was that bad.