i really dislike more than a handfull of people in toms river. there's the group of people i don't like because they're assholes who think they are better than everyone else. there's the group of people who have liked mike but seem to prolong their interest into the time him and i are together. maybe it's just me but it seems to happen with every single one of them. i'd fight them for him, fuckin bitches. and then there are the fake bitches and assholes. that's where a lot of my friends fall into category, sadly but truely. there's a whole drama of this girl and my friend that has been going on for months. it's finally stopped but it bothers me as to how many hypocrites there are that were involved in this, or involved themselves in it. i never liked the situation because i know how this boy can be, but i never hated either and especially since i wasn't involved in the situation. i defended my other friend when she needed to be, but kept my distance. and it bothered me that people were talking shit and saying they hate this girl just because of what they had heard, and now they're all close and best friends. it just bothers me that people will change their opinions only when the people around them do. and i also hate how somehow i get involved in an argument within the band when i never said one word. apparently people like to run their mouths and talk shit out of their asses and try to speak for people who have never been involved in what they're talking about. i speak for myself, thank you. i just really cannot stand the people here, or most of them. i'm sick of the bull shit and that's why i don't talk to half of the people i used to. i can't be around people with their minds full of hate. and there's a girl at work who is nice but she just hates everyone. i thought i didn't like a lot of people, but she pretty much hates everyone and wishes death upon them. but i can never walk away when i'm around her because her mouth doesn't stop running. i also don't like when people don't smile back at me when i smile to them. it's not fuckin weird to smile at people you know or work with so i think people should get over it and smile back at me. this boy was talking to me from the beach today. he is from up north and was in ortley for the day. i told him he is a benny and he had no idea what that was. so i'm wondering now if none of them know what they are or that we talk about them. i find that highly unlikely though. but anyway, it was strange. this boy. i guess it was kind of cool that he actually had the guts to come up and talk to me though. hm, whatever. i have mike and that's all i want. k i'm done complaining about shit.