up for this thing called Lifeskills. because i clearly lack life skills. which are key to living. and life. skillfully. actually im just talking shit i didnt sign up for anything. ... yeah so about that, spinning a yarn? or just ad libbing shit... well its all good cos no one cares cos its the internet and if anyones bored enough to read this they will anyway. hey there readers! hi 5! go for a run you slackers, its really good for you, mentally, physically and spiritually. running doesnt take time out of your life, it ads life to your time. what a shit line. i guess its true tho. meh anyway update on simon land! ---- get up in the morning, eat toast, brush teeth, bike to uni, lock bike up, sit in class for and hour, maybe take notes depending on motivation, leave class, unlock bike, go home, eat lunch, bike back to uni, lock bike, go to class, maybe take notes if motivated/awake, leave class, if its a monday-wednesday then walk home the long way with hutch, if its not then unlock bike and bike home. sit on couch. turn on computer. turn on music. go to google. type in the first word that comes to mind. put word in dictionary for word. look up word in wikipedia. get bored of internet. go outside and check conditions. if all good then go for run/bike/climb. if still good repeat with another choice. come home and have a shower. get dressed eat dinner. watch tv. go to sleep. REPEAT FOR A LONG TIME. so obviously for a student a key part missing in my life is study. so as per usual it comes down to some deep inhibition. or ... i need a search engine for my brain so i can find my motivation again. i had it when i was twelve... i studied like a mother fucker. i havent lifted a finger all year. it never hits home though, i can always blow it off. i can also postpone study. always. i LOVE the easy raod. apparently... i like physically tough things, i like working my body hard... not my brain though? dont like applying myself and thinking... too scary! cos it would be admitting that im not all good, that i dont know enough, that im not all there. fuck that i already know im falling behind, have fallen behind too far. the work i can do from here will only keep me from slipping any further... so i may aswell do it? YUP!! k then. i promise. sunshine is coming through with the roughness to serve up all of you no denying what Budspells they come to do they come to blaze fire, fire