Listening to: Dino
Feeling: guilty
Today was an okay day. Class, lunch, the typical crap. But that's not important. Last night I dreamed that I was pregnant. I woke up feelings like my "biological clock" was going off. I'm 20 and in school, totally single with no prospects for love. There is a good possibility that I will never find someone who is my match. I never wanted to have a career in the first place. I always wanted to be a house wife. Does that make me a bad person? I never pretended that I was a police woman or lawyer. I played house.
It makes me feel guilty. A modern woman should have some career aspirations, something for herself. All I ever wanted was to be an at home writer. I don't have any ambition to further my education. I absolutely don't want a career in business (which is what my major is). I'm not a people person. I don't really have any talents that would mean anything to an employer. I am in the wrong century. I think I could stand to wear a dress everyday as long as I didn't have to work. :-)
Just one more thing that makes me messed up.
you can add me dirtyhigh2003
dont feel guilty for what you want in life, if thats what you want then stand behind it one hundred percent, take it all the way and dont back down from it, and you talk about yourself like youre sixty five or something, youre twenty, youre not an old maid or anything.
sheesh.
yeah the saying is that you are as old as you feel, you need to get your number way down. :-/