It Felt Good

Feeling: good
I stayed up until 5 this morning doing nothing. It felt good. I'm still feeling good. It's finally sinking in that I'm in my twenties now. It's insane how fast time flies once you get out of high school. And how different people are once they get out from under their parents. My cousin/friend, Jenn just got her own place. And it's a weird feeling. Although she's only ten months younger than me I think of her as my baby sister. Sigh... Things change. My computer is infected with spyware and adware again (the !THIRD! time in !TWO! months) and I might have to crash it again. Eee it's irratating. And it's not like I don't have every kind of anti-virus, anti-spyware that they make. Machines are evil. I'm fasting again tomorrow. More later... --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 2:03 am I said "more later" and now its later. I'm going to bed soon. For once I'm tired at night. I just have to say that my friend Juliette is one of the most inspirational people I know. Like she can wrap her mind around something in a totally new way and just blow you away. Reading her diary is like meeting somebody that you just know is going to be big one day. You want to savor everything and digest it and remember. And it can't be duplicated, it's magical.
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i wish u never felt this way too


so why do u need others appoval
why did u choose to give them the power and now what are u doing










if u could do one thing in your life what would it be
i think most people are upset cause the dont know themselves truly they are confused and get engulf in modern life and get lost
God is dead
we dont have the same connection to him that the romans and dark ages middle and stuff
people cant find comfrut in nature any more they dont care the sun also raises
people dont want to think they want to be lead like sheep
nowadays with our machines and cars and jobs its hard to raise above and just be.
yea i liked talking to u too


good night


have fun at school
have ours
i think old people are bitter and say we dont care cause they went thur alot with the 30s and the war
now adays we have less responisblite then they did
look at modern girls and whores back way then and not much different
us guys like leting the world look at are underware while back then they all wore suits and hats
i miss that
also i guess they lived there lives and most of their deilluisons
were broken and lost for good
while we still
your funny

old people hate us cause we are young?
ahahahhaha
they are bitter at least

people are depressed and upset cause they care too much?
hahahahahahhahahahahah

the world is a mass and it affects us in ways we cant really expain
me either

its from this one guy that help define existentialism
its has alot of meaning it
u most likly need to go to ur local libaray to find books on this




why do old people think u care too little and why do u think we care too much?
what makes it different

god is dead
nature is dying but fight back with vengances

can u think of something mabe
?







ever read into existentialism?
[Anonymous]
so yea mabe a little



u need to go deeper i think

there is lots to
thats like the one west of the other one right
yea
i fail that class
u shouldnt slam your own state
no u shouldnt

yea many people dont know that
its happening
and some people think they are too cool to step in one and im like hey man i got to go in almost everytime im near one
oh yea



so u dont got an ideal of how to define us?
well i was just hoping


where are u?




your the writer u tell me
just look at it all


big shoes u want to fill

i got that book at goodwill for like 75cents

goodwill is happening





oh yea


so yea
are u coming on to me???






i hope so





so my choice isnt all that great think about it u could do alot with a book
books have shaped our world alot
so dont cut urself short

that cave thing is from Plato
its about the nature of truth

so what is your book going to be about?
i think i love u really wow
thats like one thing i really want to do

i think i would want to directly alter the world for the better

i can do in indirectly but not the same

i like to make believe what people are thinking of me
yea its sick and strange but it gives me control
u are capable of being in charge of urself because u are urself clearly
exactly
close your eyes and run in the cave
u may find the way out
woah, i cant believe that your brother is seventeen years younger than you!!!
thats a lot younger!
did you buy your anti virus stuff for your computer? like in a store? what kind do you have? i need to get some.
well i feel that way cause i do the same thing everyday

i dont go out much

i just started talking to this girl which is like the first in years it seems and she isnt what i really want

i just dont feel happy i guess
like is this the way my life is suppose to be
me working paying bill not really having time for things i like and being so alone it seems
its weird

so like how did u come up with that,
that your in control of yourself?
getting by
sadly
likly to be that way for a long time









why was your easter so good?
yea


so hey





how u been?


life treating u good?





i hope so
think about it

man is the product of nature and god so in a sick way machines are just reflections of us of nature and god




yea
fasting?

are u sure that in another sick way u are doing this to keep thin?
hey


time is fleeting






machines are the product of man






fasting again?

weird




yea

well



hello
yeah i sort of dread getting out of high school. but at the same time i'm overly excited about it. haha. everything changes and i cant decide if thats good or bad or both
yeah you should find that magazine, it was really really interesting, i think the episode was called tiny people or something so mabey the article will be called the same.
okay, you have a good night too.
:-)
geographic and they found a new species of people, they lived only like a hundred thousand years ago or something and they were only three feet tall, their brains were different from ours!!! they were probably much smarter than us because of the way their brains were shaped, it was really a fascinating show, there is a national geographic magazine all about it too.
ha ha hahhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...
that made me laugh out loud, ha ha ha... no mary didnt have the pill although im sure she wished she had something like that... heres the dirt on the jesus family [i dont know their last name] there was a couple of kids from josephs first marriage and then a couple of kids from mary, he had four brothers and two sisters and john the baptist was very possibly his cousin! i also watched this show on national
bet he was really good looking with his real looks, on that show that i was talking about they did this thing to show how his family would have looked, like in the place where they lived and in that time what they would have looked like and they all looked fine to me.

cheetos are my favorite!!!
okay thanks, ill try that... i really didnt want to have to go out and spend money on one!

i saw a show the other day about how there is new evidence that shows that jesus was probably not an only child either, im so glad that people are starting to show him more in a human light and as far as his looks, that is so crazy how white people couldnt stand the thought of jesus not looking like them so they just had to totally make up his looks, i
oh and yeah well i didnt have tons of chocolate, but i did have some recees pieces and some cheetoes.
i gave up chips, candy and chocolate and i craved cheetoes the most out of anything.
:-/