Lots of Money

by valleycat
Listening to: No Diggity
Feeling: fabulous
It's 4:11 am and I'm awake. Nothing unusual about that. I'm listening to something that makes me laugh. I'm living my life the way I want to. It's nice. It's fabulous. Yesterday I woke up late and wrote most of the day. Nothing structured, just free-flowing script from my brain. I didn't come up for air. I also fasted without meaning to. I've ravenous now. I realized that everyday of my life up to this point has been a sham but right now it's finally real. I am not this girl that is happy all the time. I'm not nice. I'm not Mensa material. I am not always pleasant to be around. But I am one Hell of a friend. I am polite and, if need be, a bad ass. I am a hopeless romantic (even though I hate to admit it). I have it in me to be violent. Sometimes rage consumes me until I can't see past it. I'm not always honest with myself or others. But I'm dependable. I always know what the rules are to the game I'm playing. I always follow them. Sometimes I loathe myself and who I've become but I feel helpless. But in the end I am a survivor. No matter what is in front of me I will get past it. It's in my nature to persevere. I posted this pic because it feels totally true today. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- My cousin finally (!) updated her diary so you guys should go check it out. It's w1ck3d69120. Thanks! ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- This is from the FBI website: Have you recently received an e-mail, purportedly from the FBI, with the subject "Your IP was logged," warning you about illegal downloading of movies and software and saying you are under FBI investigation? If you have, please be advised that the e-mail is a fake--the Bureau, even though it does investigative violations of Intellectual Property laws, does not investigate or notify persons under investigation as outlined in the e-mail. It may also contain a virus. If you've received the e-mail, please contact the FBI at www.ifccfbi.gov.
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it means everyithng to me, thus if this shirt speaks true then i too mean nothing, and i'm okay with that, because it means everything to me.
whoa, you'd be an awesome friend! =)
having not found it does not mean one should write off its value. but who am i to speak of such things? i know not what the concept even is.

isn't class in an hour or two?
[Anonymous]
that's a bad habit. it causes an undue amount of knowledge of infomercial products to be passed into your hippocampus. and no amount of alcohol or masturbation will remove it.
[Anonymous]
busy. i quit my old one last month, and have been working solidly for 60-70 hours a week at the new one, learning their system and modifying it to my liking. i'd like to boast that at this one i am actually importnat and powerful, but i'm not. i'm still a turd monkey.

i always figure the sally struthers foundation or whatever it is is a hoax and all of those starving kids are disney-hired midgets, and that all of our donations actually go -
[Anonymous]
- towards research into providing miss struthers with eternal life. or, eternal cookies. one or the other.
[Anonymous]
thank you, that is really sweet of you to say.
seans ex-girlfriend was saying stuff about me to him, of course he knows me so he doesnt think its true. she is just mad cause he dropped her ass for me and when they were together he talked about me all the time anyway.
:-)
buzz, booze, tomato, ketchup, me, hot naked fantaties. ummmm .... what?
[Anonymous]
Hey babe! You are a genious!!!! (spelling) You know what I'm talking about to! Pretty in pink shall we call it. Mwahahahaha!
I give you credit, you are a wonderful friend. Actually that's an understatement. I honestly don't believe I can come up with a word for it. But you're awsome. That's why I love ya so much. =)
ps I updated!!!!! Tell the herd to check it out. lol
Love ya
Jen
[Anonymous]
i am happy to see you being honest with yourself...

smiels
Hmmm, interesting. :D
Poog.
nice idea but i doubt thats gonna happen, im not going to trust myself to be close enough to her to hug her number one and number two i wouldnt want to be her friend.

i like your new colors, they remind me of something but i cant figure out what.
well, i started school in early february, guess that probably makes a difference huh.. cuz i think you guys start school at different times or whatever...wherever you are..?