Listening to: Some lame oldies sappy love song.
Feeling depressed. Yay.
I don't know, even if I manage to get back to Killara, I'll only be as happy as I was before I stopped going; not very.
And it just all seems so pointless.
Spending 3 more years at a school I hate to get a job I won't like, end up marrying a guy I married out of lack of anyone else wanting me (or just growing old alone) and eventually watching my marriage drift apart, to be stuck as an old woman with children who don't know the least thing about me, and don't want to.
And SO WHAT if I did anything interesting. It wouldn't matter once I was gone anyway, just another needle in a billion haystakcs, and.. it's much too hard to cheer up these days.
I really shouldn't have skipped my pills the other night, eh?
i dunno... i for somereasn believe that adults who had tough teen lives make better parents... now where did i get that from??... err... actually i think my dad told me one time when i was pissed off with my mama and not him... which was probably just an act to make him feel like the better parent but oh well... when you think about it they probably would anwyays...