....but I still got my VIRGINITY. Ok well Jamie and I are not going out. I hate his guts. He hates mine for leading him on. And Roger is trying to act all innocent and he told me that Drea talks about me...yad yada yada. This will all blow over and if not i dont really care. Jamie found himself another fuck buddy. So ive been kicked to the side lines. come on and ask me if i care? Roger tried to make it seem like Mel was the liar...but no everything ive told her is true. Shes the one person i know has my back so i wouldnt lie to her. School sucks! I'd rather be a loner then deal with some of the bs. I'm sick of drama and people who are your friend one minute and talking behind your back the next. After this week I'm going to be really careful with who I trust. stay within yourself I wanted to be alone today to figure things out about Jaimie mostly/ the pressure, and where my head is at in school, but some took it as I was mad. If were going nowhere If its not enough And we sing without a reason To ever fall in love I used to write alot of poetry and i used to think of everything as beautiful, especially love. But I don't believe in any of that mushy stuff anymore. One day I just woke up and realized my reality. I'm not saying that love isn't beautiful for some...but for me and at this point in my life, it means nothing. Yeah so, I'm done with guys for awhile. I'm just gonna focus on what's important. To think, in 2 years most the little things wont matter anymore. I don't know if Kelly will read this or not, but thanks for waking me up. You made me realize alot and thanks for caring.