Dying for a cause....[abandonment] My ruby red shoes, only sends mortar shells through my veins. I threw them away, and prayed for one of my old brand-new days. forget that. reality check x I will go bury my head in my pillow, crying four years of pain and thank god for everything he has done for me?. Now I can see all 5 heads on the wall and they are no longer faceless. I was never senseless nor blind. maybe in time i won't feel so i s o l a t e d. sucking the poison out of my life....