Listening to this paticular song because it was like our song. Every time he'd play it we'd laugh, or give a little smirk and only we'd know why. [It may not have seemed like it but and my brother could tell eachother stuff] Times up. Hes gone. I cant beleive it, hes actually gone. I am happy for my brother, making something of himself, living his life, but honestly i dont like it. There was so much stuff I wanted to do with him. Like i wanted to ride my first roller coaster ride with him at six flags [ive never been there] I wanted to be able to bring my boyfriend [when i have one] over and know that he'll get the crap scared out him cuz nicks there. [I know Nick was looking forward to that too] Weirdly enough I liked him tryin to chase away people from me, it made me feel safe and protected. I know even though he doesnt live with me anymore that i will still be protected but its not the same when hes not even in the same country. let reminisce I always helped him with his site. I was like the in house critic for his graphics he made, and his HTML adviser. I remember writting a specific code for him to use on his site. And everyday when i would come home, Lazer would be blastin, and I would make us sausage and rice everyday. Then when hed get real hyper out of no where he would just get up and start to do this funny dance that made my dog go wild, and he would pretend to hit me to get my dog to bark. Our last xmas together he wore an xmas bag on his head, and it was the first year he didnt wrap things in tin foil [cuz there was no more]. He also had standard hand cuffs and he handcuffed me behind my back, and said lets see if you can get your hands infront of you [that was a piece of cake] Memories so dear to me, will be the ones not forgotten I just cant beleive hes actually gone.. I always thought that wed grow up together and here he is grown up, and I am not done yet!! By the next time I see him I will be grown up by then.. well close enough. There is just so much we'll both miss.