okay. so. i am kinda... freaking out right now. not really soo much because nothing really bad happend. well something bad happend, but its not as bad as it could have been. and right now i dont know what to do with myself.. i am just.. ahh. i cant sleep coz some how i am just not tired anymore, even tho i was woken up to hear this news. and rah. for a second i felt like i couldnt breath, and my world slowly collapsed around me.