I just broke down.. said screw it and gave up I have always felt I had to be strong for everyone, so I wouldnt cry, I wouldnt get so mad I snap, I would just act happy so everyone else could come to me.. but today I just fell apart. [KD.. your right.. eventually we wil break down no matter how distracted we make ourselves] No matter how angry I get, I always seem to get happy when i am by Nicole, and Brittany. I dono why so they had no idea that I was fallin apart even though they wouldve been good for advice. but today.. first someone jacked my real silver sterling amethest ring. That makes me so mad righ there. Then Nathanal has the nerve to come up to me and act like he never stbed me in the back, and then talk trash about me infront of my face in sign language. I know how to read sign language but according to him "I am to stupid and unpopular to know what he is saying" thats what he says.. I dont know what he is saying becuase i cant understand him talk when he has his head so far up his ass. Then since day one for me and earl everyone has insulted me, talked about me, and then accused him of cheatin on me. Serisouly there isnt one person that i know who hasnt said something to me about him. But i didnt believe a lot of it because ^#1no proof and ^#2I am so dang hard headed!!! but today I heard that now he has another girl to add to the list so I had to talk to him about this.. about everything that I have heard because I have to hear it from him. and when I tried to talk calmly words came out and with an attitude go figure and then i was just snappin'.. and I think that this may be the end of us. But if everything I heard is true then good.. its over I am fine then, but if everything I heard isnt true.. then it just goes to show rumors and friends and strange people can ruin something good for you. People are just always in your business.. there isnt one day where someone isnt in my face in my problems in my space putting their noses where is doesnt belong. Its just hard because for the first time I looked at him and couldnt believe him. i should just stop playing along and get all this out of the way now so it wont come back later..strike the match to light this fuse and let it go now better than later. shes all alone again, wiping the tears from her eyes. Some days she feels like dying, she gets so sick of crying --green day::extroidinary girl