[continuing from entry 102 [o.oOwebstie] this is part 2] One of the other things that i have been all caught up in was with my girl whom I ll leave nameless.. well she was messing up her life BIG TIME.. drinking, drugs while DRIVING, and was big time suicidal. Everyday she came to me with her problems.. which were all the same. I kept trying to help her but i wasnt getting through.. and i suggested she talk to an adult but she didnt want anyone to know. At first i thought i was being a good friend by keeping her seceret.. then i realized, what kind of friend am i being by knowing that she is ruining her life and not stopping her? So I told someone who could really help her.. I know it betrayed her trust.. told her seceret. but i decided that I would rather have her alive and hating me than her dead and me hating myself because I had the chance to save her and didnt. She came to me and said "At first I was mad at you...you told them when i told you not too.. but then after talking with them I was glad you told. Thank you.." I was glad that she wasnt mad at me, that what i did helped, and that SHE GOT SOME SENCE KNOCKED INTO HER!!! I was glad because all i wanted to do was help her, and i did.. she promised that she was going to stop messing up her life! Doing all those things... shes onl 15.. gots her whole life ahead of her.. no sense in ending it now! and now she says she has a lot to live for. .. and shes happy that she has at least one friend that she knows is looking out for her. haha thats me! lol :p although all this made me super super super stressed out!! .. which it is still making me because i am worried about her, but i am a little relived that more people are aware of this and are helping her. I know this is only the begining of this battle, but at least now we have started fighting it right..