..well my life has been so boring, and it has given me very little time to chat to myself about me. Since the beginning of the week, I have been babysitting, my little cousin Spencer. Sometimes, he can be the nicest kid in the world, but then there is this little evil annoying Spencer that really gets on my nerves. He always has to have it his way! like.. his favourite N64 game is James Bond 007 and yah sure, its alright. but like he has to be James, and he has to kiss me. I can never kill him, or else he starts to throw a temper... even his dad came in and said " I can never play that game with him, or else we get trouble in the house".. meaning, someone gets in trouble. I also feel so left out. I haven't seen a friend of st. Vital for sooo long, like.. almost 2 weeks ago, and for T-cona it was Monday... but that does't count as much because I rarely see her, becuase she doesn't exactly come to my house, I usually go there. I also miss my other t-cona friends, bedcause when I go to t-cona I usually see steph, or else I'd feel bad for not dropping in. but more then less. I am left out. Justine is always with Mel, Steph, or Emily.... DOn't get me wrong, they're my friends, but I miss just hanging out with Justine...well... I miss all my friends, and I just feel so left out, because They are always together, and im not there with them. It seems so diffrent. Everyone likes someone new, people are hanging out together that i never thought would ahve happened...and for me? I dont know whats happening to me... I just feel really confused, and I just want to cry or tell someone everything... I just dont know what to do. I am just a lost little girl.