Well I have about...less then 4 days until my first exam, and I am scared shitless. I have been trying to study, but itjust wont click for me. I am having a tough time right now with my friends. To me, it seems as if no matter what; im doing something wrong in my eyes. They say they're happy for me..yet they dont like what im doing. I feel as if my best friend is cutting me out of her life.. and replacing me with someone whom used to hangout with her when ever it was good to her advantage. Life is SO messed up right now. They will tell me that I should call, which I do.. I dont have the lateest curfue; so its not like I can stay out late with them.. They never invite me; for the fact I hanging out with him..yet I wont even get the offer..Does this mean I shouldn't hang out with him as much? they don't call..Sometimes when in my room I just cry..because it feels as if they dont even remember who I am..or maybe they lost my number?..could that really be it?..Prolly not..Im just trying to make myself feel better. They will mention whom they dont like, and why...yet I see it with my own eyes that they're acting as if shit all has ever happened..they just go to how it used to be.. I dont understand how they do it..Can you really forget things like that? Or do they just avoid the topic until they have either completely forgotten it or drifted appart. I'll be with our friends in a group..and Its like im not there.. They just talk around me and make plans. Inside I feel.. Ditched..like in there eyes im invisible..I feel as if im failing in the way of life..I dont really think im doing wrong..but when they shun me like that, I feel as if my insides are breaking.. Like today after school... I was standing with pretty much the 2 people I have ever been able to consider a best friend...and it was like they never even knew I was there.. Then I started walking to the bus with tai, and Santa's Boyfriend..and one of my good friends was there; she just kept on walking..no Hi.. no hello... I think I swallowed a big boat there.. I can tell that things aren't the same no more with them.. Its almost as if I am being replaced with someone that was close to me.. maybe its ment to be? I mean like... They both have late curfue's.. I wish someone would tell me what I need to do.. Maybe I need a later curfue.