hey hey!!!! lol what's up y'all?!?! nothing much here just chillin at home being depressed again but hey OH WELL!! shit happens and there is nothing you can do about it!!! muahaha lol anywayz...... um... volleyball is just about done!!! YES!! today was my last practice and then tomorrow we have a game against apollo!! we are so going to beat their asses!!! lol we did the last time we played against them and the other times we did too!!!! muahaha we are evil!!! NOT!!!!!!!!!! haha anywayz again..... ok well as some of you don't know im over chris like my feelings are GONE!!! i have no passion for him whatsoever!!! lol i love that word!! hehe..... but yea my heart can't take all this pain he is giving it!! it's ahh! i just wanna scream....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! there i feel so much better!!! lol i tried talking to jake about me and him but then his bro tim told me that he found himself a girlfriend :( (tears) but i guess im cool with it, even though i miss him a lot!!! well in gym yesterday (tuesday the 11th) Derek Mattson was running right behind me {cause we have to run right away in the beginning of class} and he was like pushing me so i was running as fast as he was! omg was i running fast i was about to trip once but i caught my balance lol! then he was like twisting my bra strap with my shirt so it looked all funny in the back. it was kinda funny cause he got in trouble with Mr.Akerson!! lol but it was funny i think he was flirting with me but yea.... lol then today i asked sheri to ask Derek if he liked me and he said no but it does not seem that way if you were around us the whole gym hour!! lol it's weird but yea... it's kinda hard to explain it all cause yea it's one of those moments you had to be there type things lol!! um... 20 more days till my birthday! can't wait!!! hehe i guess lol umm yea that's it on that...... im done writing so im going to go ttyl byebye love always, Bailie