well hi everyone. what's new with all y'allz?? sorry i haven't written i tried before and it kept on logging me out so yea....sorry! as all of you know Mason and Efe came to town saturday. woohoo...(sorry not in the mood for happiness) and everyone came over here which was fun...then we wasted $5 on going to the warehouse which was so stupid. but yea um..... it was fun hope everyone else had fun! well today is such a drag! well and last night too i guess you can say. well ill tell the story for those who don't know and the ones that do know just hang tight... i called derek which he wasn't home yet so then he called me when he got home and like we..i mean i talked and then he said "bailie i need to tell you something," and im like "ok what," and then he said "oh nevermind you won't like it when you find out," and im like "just tell me," and he said "in time you'll find out." then later im like "you gonna tell me what you were gonna say before?" and he said "no." then i said "you got me thinking." and he said "good." then im like "you on weed again?" and he said "no." so then im like "you're planning on breaking up with me?!" long silence!!!! then i said "oh i got you silent now eh?".....long silence then said "you got me scared now derek" then i said "i have to go, my dad needs to use the phone." then he said nothing then i said "goodbye and goodnight" then he said "bye"....ok so there you have it then oh yea and i wrote like 4 poems last night and cryed myself to sleep!! yea sad....then today i went up to him after lunch and told him it was over and these are his words...."i know, it's been over." that like hurt so much!!! i mean 3 weeks without even saying anything to me about it!!! (tears!!!) well yea um... i dunno what to say oh yea and GOOD thing i DIDN'T get him this $60 cologne i found that smelt really good! neen.....sorry for yelling at you this morning! it's just you've never experienced this and you kinda weren't helping cause like i said you've never had this happen to you! i have! im thankfull you were there for me! this is gonna take me awhile to get over so sorry if im all spacey on you guys!! like i know it's over but i just can't let him go! it's hard i loved him too much!! and i don't know what i did!!:( (tears!!!) im going to go ill talk to y'allz later!! love always, Bailie