I was just thinking. You know how people always say ‘remember the good ol’ days’ when everything was so much more easier? Well I just realized ‘today’ a few years from now are going to be the ‘good ol’ days’. Then what the fuck does that mean? It means that you better enjoy your ‘younger’ ‘older’ days while you’re living them, because from now on, life only gets harder, and usually that implies ‘not as fun’. So on the same note, I decided I am going to do just that. Enjoy the things here and now, and not waste a thing. Also, I am going to reevaluate (god, my career studies teacher would be so proud; I’m actually using this word in real life) myself, my life, and everything. Like for example a bunch of people who I thought were my friends turned out not to be who I thought they were. I never intentionally go out and pretend to be someone’s friend until someone better comes along and then just ditch the first person. No, I’m not like that. When I make friends, I try my best to keep good relations with them. Talk with them. Ask them what’s wrong. Help them whenever they ask; even when they don’t. And most of all, I open up to them. You see, that’s my problem. I open up and trust just about everyone. I know, it’ so naïve and stupid. Sometimes when I look back at certain situations, I literally kick myself for doing so. But the way I am, I cant help it, and I tend to trust the wrong people, and it sucks. That about sums it up. SUCKS. When you’ve trusted someone so much, believed in them; thought they’d help you whenever you needed it; would cheer you up whenever you’re down, (how ironic, ‘on the way down’ just started playing…. ‘you saved me from myself, I won’t forget the way you loved me…..i almost fell right through but I held on to you’). Ok this might not reflect exactly what I’m talking about, but its close. But that is how I felt with some people the past few months, except what the song fails to mention is that sometimes you trust the wrong people, and they hurt you. A LOT. There, I think that made my point quite well. Anyway, I don’t even know what brought this up, but I felt like I had to write it. On other news I watched Bend It Like Beckham yesterday. It was pretty funny. And throughout the movie what I kept thinking was ‘holy shit, that’s just like my parents, except mine are like ten times more overprotective, nauseating, etc.’ like the whole thing just kind of reflected how my family is. Lol. I found that pretty ironic. Oh yeah, except with my story, my ‘rents don’t let me go to the US to play professional soccer…yeah…. My ranting mood, for now, has subsided. Plus this song is really getting on my nerves. Later