God. I actually told him I like him. I've been wanting to for the longest time. But I finally did today...at like 7 in the morning or something. It just came out before I could stop myself. God. I thought I'd feel relieved, calm, less emotionally tired. But instead I feel really shitty; drained; worried; and a mix of suicidal/depressed...heh, not fun, I'll tell ya that. You can't just tell one of your best friends that you like them..I don't know if I love him- but you can't just do that. It messes up the whole friendship cycle thing. Fuck, man. I'm not sure what to do now.