i haven't felt this sad EVER. its like..depression x10. i think im spreading it too... first it was kristy..i made her feel slightly depressed. then em cheered me up somewhat. now its kyle..he says it was something his mom did..but it probably wasn't. now. i just lost a friend. i really didn't want to be mad at her..but it was her fault. i feel so empty. i don't feel like doing anything. i just want to lay on my bed and cry forever.. i've ruined things. and they may never be the same. what is the point of it all? why does this world bring such trajic things. i wish i was a farie..like em says my hair is like. faries are so pretty.. its so weird how i can cover up my emotions around my parents and my brother. im a mermaid in a cinderella world.. ugh. sorry guys..i just needed to get it all out. and i would NEVER EVER commit suicide. never. there's to many things im looking forward to. and i love you all too incredibly much. :)