before you read-this is NOT directed to anyone. i just have to get it out of my head. i just watched little black book. that movie really makes you think. it makes you think who your real friends are. but then, if you think you have real friends, you don't know if they're going to sell you out for their job..or a boyfriend or anything else. it makes you have all these thoughts in your head, thinking "what if that happened to me?" or "is this happening to me...right now?" if makes you think if you do have friends who would be like that. but then..you don't know if they're going to be like that. you don't know what they do behind your back. they could be using you..like a baby uses diapers. I just..ughh. i would absoulty hate that if someone did that to me. i talk to myslef at night, and I don't really let my guard down..ever. i don't even let my arm hang over my bed when im just laying there, in fear that somethings going to get me. i don't trust easily. this wasn't directed to anyone. i just feel bad about it all..like. one of my friends is going to leave a comment "is that how you really feel about me?" and the answer is no. its not. but, there are people in this world who are like that. what i think right now..is "what i don't know, won't hurt me" kind of.. wow. that was depressing. im done...and i have a feeling im going to get some nasty remarks :