I don't know anymore.. I have the job I have the money. But of course I am still in debt.. I should be happy right? I feel like something is missing I just don’t know what, or who. I have my friends even when I am with them I feel lonely, empty. I want a girlfriend but if I get one I will never have time for her and don’t want a girl to fall for me and never see me I can’t do that again. I just wish I knew what my sub conscious is craving.. I’m tired of being depressed, well it feels like I am depressed, Ah.. confusion. Heh it’s always found a way into my life with many aspects of it. I am just going to stop typing now and try to drift into a spacy haze at work