What is wrong with me. I've got the best girl, the best job, I should be happy right now.. No? wtf why CAN I NEVER BE HAPPY I miss being 13 no girls no cars no only worry was to get out of bed and go to school, and hang out with friends play PS1 Now 21 I have to wake up M-F go to work do a good job so i keep the job so i can pay rent to have a place to live and to pay for the car that i never drive. :( She makes me happy. Sarah can only do so much btw 328 pounds in December of 2008 September 2009 252 pounds and still going down. Feels good man.